Teenage life

Growing up as a teenager, my number one problem is of course school. My life revolves around school: school work, school sports/clubs, and school events. When you are growing up as a teenager, you feel as if you are tired of school and don't want to learn anymore. But when you finish school, you feel like you want to learn again. That's a paradox.

One lesson I learned growing up as a teenager is that I don't always get what I want, and sometimes, I have to respect what I already have. When I was a kid, I always begged to buy toys and it was easier for me to get what I wanted when I was little. But once you are a teenanger, your parents try to teach you to save money and become an adult. As an adult, one cannot spend money like crazy. Teenagers don't usually know how important it is to save money because we don't work for it. When we start realizing how painful it is to get money, then we will understand the importance of money.

Another problem I have growing up as a teenager is procrastination. Whenever I try to do my homework, I always get distracted by my computer. I just don't feel like doing my work and surf the web, watching youtube, playing games. I think it will be a problem for me if this continues, so I try to keep my self focused.

Last but not least, growing up as a teenager, I learned that sports can be really tough. It wasn't until high school when I found out that soccer required a lot of stamina and strength. When I was in elementary school, it wasn't that important to have stamina. But now, I learned that stamina is really really important and that's why I chose to run Cross Country this year.

My Family

My family can be a family at times but sometimes separated. I have a family of three: my dad, my mom, and me. We eat dinner as a family almost every single night, although my mom comes to dinner late because she has to pray before she eats. She usually comes when I'm half done with my dinner and I'm always the first one to finish dinner and go do something else. I don't talk much at the dinner table, I just eat. I don't usually start up conversations, it's usually my dad.

On weekends we don't really do much as a family. My mom has to do work and my dad goes out to buy groceries from Chinese supermarkets. My dad is like the typical mom. He comes to every single one of my soccer games, which my mom rarely does. He used to drive me to school every morning, and he was the one picking me up from places. My mom is usually too busy with her work and my dad cooks more than my mom, so the role of mother and father is sort of switched in my family......or more like my dad does things usual moms do in addition to what usual dads do.

I don't spend much time with my family because I'm usually doing homework or hanging out with friends or playing sports. When I was 11 or 12, we spent more time together as a family, going to places like Stone Mountain and just doing things on weekends. But since now I'm older and have more stuff to do and because my mom has a job, our family hasn't really been a family like we used to be.

After all the discussions

After all those discussions revealed to me about fate, the only thing I figured out was that fate becomes responsibility. It was Oedipus's responsibility to leave his town to try to not kill his father and marry his mother. But in the end, fate was inevitable and his fate came to him unknowingly.

I feel that after all, maybe freewill isn't that free. I do not get to do just "whatever" I want and there are certain things on Earth that restrict me from doing it. But then again, I don't totally believe that there is fate. Believing in fate is like believing that there is some greater power in this world that controls me. I don't have a religion but I do believe in god. But I don't think god determines everything that I do or everything anyone else does. God cannot be responsible for 911 or the war.

Ultimately, I think there is both. Some things we do are determined by ourselves, while somethings cannot be escaped. There is no real answer about whether fate or freewill exist. I think it's better to live on without answering cause there is no point in answering it.